Read that again.....
Believe in it. I love this acronym so much and believe in it 100%. Does it sound selfish? I'm sure to some people it does and I may have believed it was selfish at one point in my life. But these words are so true, if you don't love yourself it is impossible to love others, if you don't take care of yourself it is impossible to take care of others. Fill your cup so full that it overflows with plenty to give.
This journey in life has certainly been testing me in so many ways. Sometimes it takes someone you love to remind you of who you really are and that you need to find yourself again.
Deep down I have felt angry, not necessarily at myself but at my body. My emotions have been all over the place and so hard to control. I know a lot of that has to do with my hormones being completely out of whack. My energy is low, workouts have been really tough and it just frustrates me because I can't fix it myself.
Realizing how I have been feeling about myself and knowing it affects how I have been with those I love has been hard. At one point in my life I was doing really well with meditation and even got into tarot reading. I let myself stop practicing those things without realizing how much of an impact it had on me.
A couple of weeks ago I started implementing daily meditation, even if I can only fit in five minutes a day. I also began journaling and reconnecting with the Universe in my own way. The changes I have felt by allowing myself the time needed to do this every day is amazing. I know I will be a work in progress every day for the rest of my life and I am fine with that. Giving myself the love to truly reconnect and see who I have come to be at this point in life has been the best thing I could do for myself and my family and all those I love.
There are still rough moments and I know there always will be. Getting through training sessions recently has been rough. My body just tires out faster, especially when I try to do heavier lifting days. The dizzy spells come frequently and we have found that I really need to be careful with up and down movement right now.
March 9th cannot get here soon enough. I am more than ready to get surgery scheduled and say "bye-bye" to my damn uterus! It gave me the most precious gift in the world, our sweet Bella, but man has it turned on me.
If you find yourself struggling with self care, start off slow with even just 2-5 minutes a day. Do whatever works for YOU. There is no right or wrong way to take care of yourself.
I used to think I had to meditate a certain way but learned that meditation is a very personal experience and there is no "wrong" way to do it. You do YOU. Start off with guided meditations like this one:
There are also a couple of podcasts that I listen to and they have really resonated with me in so many ways.
Bruce Van Horn is brilliant and I love the sound of his voice. I am to really be at ease when I listen to any of his podcasts. He has great advice for all areas of life and I highly recommend giving him a listen.
Trish Blackwell is the bomb! I love her authentic enthusiasm and her direct approach. Some of her podcasts are faith based and if that's not your thing give the other episodes a listen. She gives awesome advice and has so many great tips for all areas of life, she will help you to believe in yourself and forget the loud outside noise.
I believe I was meant to find myself in this place before my surgery. Before a big part of me is removed and my hormones get a bit more wacky I will have better tools to help me get through it. I am thankful for all of the support around me but also I am grateful that I am able to truly believe in and support myself.
Now go be the best YOU that you can be!